Blah. For some reason I'm completely drawn to getting on Ryan's Facebook even though I know I shouldn't, and then I always end up getting hurt by seeing some conversation he had with some girl. I mean, yeah, were young & I shouldn't be so jealous, but I mean taking your shirt off on webcam for two girls..? UH YEAH, PROBLEM THERE PRETTY BOY. -_-
BUT. Forgive & forget, right? I just have to keep in mind that the Bible says Love keeps no record of wrong.. but I should also keep that in mind on the topic of mom, dad, Brooke, and basically the rest of the family, too.
Sigh, take me back, kindergarten?
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Things I Want To Change....
- World Hunger.
- Talks about the end of the world..
- Math. ALL math.
- Being the only one who cares about my grades.
- My 6th grade school year..
- Ryan's mood swings.
- Boys, in general.
- School starting so early.
- etc..
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Sigh....
I feel like a total abandoner since I haven't write on here in forever... so I'll try to fill you in as much as I can.. but I jump around alot. :)
First off- I attended KUNA! I got an outstanding ambassador award, and we got best native attire! My country also got best proposal<3 I was so proud.
Second.... me and Ryan are.. wow. I love him more with everyday that passes. Yesturday he came over and we were faced with a decision... to do something that would change our relationship entirely.. and we didn't do it. I was so proud of him.. He's becoming more grown up everyday.
Today, Chelsea Polston told me she liked him and then asked me not to tell him, then she asked me if I thought he liked her that way?! Really?!
Jared has leukemia again.. I wanna be here for him more than anything.. but I'm scared. Because last time I let him down... He only has a 10% chance of surviving WITH treatment.. and he's not getting treatment this time.
All we can do is pray..
Sigh.
I love my life.
Except the fact I got my phone taken for telling mom she acted like Hitler.. Only because she was. :)
First off- I attended KUNA! I got an outstanding ambassador award, and we got best native attire! My country also got best proposal<3 I was so proud.
Second.... me and Ryan are.. wow. I love him more with everyday that passes. Yesturday he came over and we were faced with a decision... to do something that would change our relationship entirely.. and we didn't do it. I was so proud of him.. He's becoming more grown up everyday.
Today, Chelsea Polston told me she liked him and then asked me not to tell him, then she asked me if I thought he liked her that way?! Really?!
Jared has leukemia again.. I wanna be here for him more than anything.. but I'm scared. Because last time I let him down... He only has a 10% chance of surviving WITH treatment.. and he's not getting treatment this time.
All we can do is pray..
Sigh.
I love my life.
Except the fact I got my phone taken for telling mom she acted like Hitler.. Only because she was. :)
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Sciegaj's.
Today I went to see Alice In Wonderland with Ryan and Nikki; it was amazing. (: Ambria's a great Alice.
Then we went back to their house, and then church and Wendy's, then home. ):
Church was interesting, because I asked Ryan if he had ever been saved and he said yes. But I haven't been yet.. It was awkward. I haven't been, though, because I know I'm gonna make tons more mistakes, especially with being a teenager. I don't want to continually let God down, and get saved more than once. I'll know when it's my time, and I don't believe it's right now. I know God has plans for me- great plans- and getting saved isn't one of them just yet. I'm 14, and many challenges and obsticles lay ahead of me. I have accepted God as my personal savior, just not in church, just yet.
I may be wrong for doing this, but it is my life- and I've been wrong before.
Then we went back to their house, and then church and Wendy's, then home. ):
Church was interesting, because I asked Ryan if he had ever been saved and he said yes. But I haven't been yet.. It was awkward. I haven't been, though, because I know I'm gonna make tons more mistakes, especially with being a teenager. I don't want to continually let God down, and get saved more than once. I'll know when it's my time, and I don't believe it's right now. I know God has plans for me- great plans- and getting saved isn't one of them just yet. I'm 14, and many challenges and obsticles lay ahead of me. I have accepted God as my personal savior, just not in church, just yet.
I may be wrong for doing this, but it is my life- and I've been wrong before.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
First time..
This, like many other things this year, is my first time. Writing in a blog, that is. Therefore I'll probably ramble on about something stupid for the next paragraphs, but oh well. That's what 14 year old girls are best at, right?
I guess first I should explain myself, although I already know myself. Partially. I have trouble communicating with myself at times, and I thought maybe this would help. Hopefully. And years down the road, if Blogger still exists, I'll probably find this amusing.
I'm 14 years old, as I mentioned. I'm in 8th grade. Russell County Middle School... a failed attempt at a 'fun' place. I love to write. I love to dance. I love Will Ferrell and Justin Bieber. With a passion. My boyfriend, Ryan Sciegaj.... he's amazing. Well, that's an understatement. I'm pretty sure he's my 'first' love. We've been together since June, and it's February. We broke up for two hours in December but, that's two hours, right? No need to start over. My best friend lives with me, seriously. Her families kinda... yeah. I have two brothers, and four sisters. Out of all my siblings, only one is my FULL sister. I'm the third oldest; but due to the fact one of my sisters is 23 and the other one lives in another county, I'm usually considered the oldest. I love to read, and write. I won basketball homecoming queen, somehow. 3rd place in county spelling bee.. I'm probably beginning to sound conseded, but this is MY blog, who's to say so?
Tomorrow I will begin to lay out the events of the day, I do believe. Today was more like the first day of school when the teacher tries to get to know every student and has us share 5 of our personal things with the class, with kids we've been going to school with our whole lives.
So that's me.. barely.
I guess first I should explain myself, although I already know myself. Partially. I have trouble communicating with myself at times, and I thought maybe this would help. Hopefully. And years down the road, if Blogger still exists, I'll probably find this amusing.
I'm 14 years old, as I mentioned. I'm in 8th grade. Russell County Middle School... a failed attempt at a 'fun' place. I love to write. I love to dance. I love Will Ferrell and Justin Bieber. With a passion. My boyfriend, Ryan Sciegaj.... he's amazing. Well, that's an understatement. I'm pretty sure he's my 'first' love. We've been together since June, and it's February. We broke up for two hours in December but, that's two hours, right? No need to start over. My best friend lives with me, seriously. Her families kinda... yeah. I have two brothers, and four sisters. Out of all my siblings, only one is my FULL sister. I'm the third oldest; but due to the fact one of my sisters is 23 and the other one lives in another county, I'm usually considered the oldest. I love to read, and write. I won basketball homecoming queen, somehow. 3rd place in county spelling bee.. I'm probably beginning to sound conseded, but this is MY blog, who's to say so?
Tomorrow I will begin to lay out the events of the day, I do believe. Today was more like the first day of school when the teacher tries to get to know every student and has us share 5 of our personal things with the class, with kids we've been going to school with our whole lives.
So that's me.. barely.
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