Sigh....

I feel like a total abandoner since I haven't write on here in forever... so I'll try to fill you in as much as I can.. but I jump around alot. :)
First off- I attended KUNA! I got an outstanding ambassador award, and we got best native attire! My country also got best proposal<3 I was so proud.
Second.... me and Ryan are.. wow. I love him more with everyday that passes. Yesturday he came over and we were faced with a decision... to do something that would change our relationship entirely.. and we didn't do it. I was so proud of him.. He's becoming more grown up everyday.
Today, Chelsea Polston told me she liked him and then asked me not to tell him, then she asked me if I thought he liked her that way?! Really?!

Jared has leukemia again.. I wanna be here for him more than anything.. but I'm scared. Because last time I let him down... He only has a 10% chance of surviving WITH treatment.. and he's not getting treatment this time.
All we can do is pray..

Sigh.
I love my life.

Except the fact I got my phone taken for telling mom she acted like Hitler.. Only because she was. :)